Stress

This is really starting to take it's toll on my physically.

Work has been putting me through a lot of stress as of this past week (and don't get me started on the SCHIP renewal Act I'm having to review) and I guess this weekend just has pushed me over the physiological edge. I guess this is the end result of rarely expressing myself.

Despite everything I can't bring myself to cry...I'd like to...but just really can't. Now I've got massive nausea and my usual lower back problems are paying me their semi-annual visit early. On top of all of this I've got to fly to LA for the day this Wednesday which will be a very long and boring day.

I find myself torn between wanting companionship and wanting to just be left alone, between talking to someone about how I feel and just ignoring it, between wanting to just kill off all emotions and embracing them.

Here's hoping I'm still employed Wednesday night...